I've made no secret that I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Personally, I feel that by talking about it openly, I can help other people who may be suffering in silence to feel less ashamed, and to hopefully seek the help they need. Asking for help when you need it is a sign of strength.
In case you hadn't noticed, I've been a little missing in action for a while. On the heels of my exciting news and gallery showing, I suddenly found myself unable to deal with everything going on in my life.
How sad, that after being honored with a spot in the Main Street windows at artlink, I couldn't even bring myself to be excited about it. In fact, I could barely bring myself to go through with it. I haven't even been to see my own showing yet.
When you suffer from Bipolar, you can experience highs that make you feel invincible. There are short periods of time when I feel like I rule the world. But then there are the lows, and those can make everything seem awful. And sometimes, there are even deeper episodes of depression that make living day to day nearly unbearable.
So much happened this summer that I should have been excited about, there was so much life that went by me that I missed out on. A whole summer, wasted. Time that I can never get back.
I implore each of you, if you think you may be suffering from any kind of depression, to please seek help. Depression is a thief, and if left unchecked, may even rob you of your life. If you already have been diagnosed and are still learning to deal with it, my advice is to learn your triggers, and avoid them if you are feeling weak. Learn what makes you feel better, and cling to that. Take time for yourself, and get plenty of rest, eat well, and keep company with those who don't drag you down. Talk to people when you need to. And it really really helps to remember that it isn't real. The thoughts and feelings are shadows. Not truth.
My Fellow Fine Artists
Tammy Zurak of Z Photog Studio | Memphis, TN, USA | Fine Art/Illustrative Photography Gallery:
Pam Korman of District Photography | Philadelphia, PA, USA | Fine Art Photography:
www.bonniealrifai.com Fine art photography
Handy Andy Pandy